And here she is!

  

Jitters

It is official! Our LID is included in this group of matches. I am excited of course, but I am feeling jittery. My stomach has almost non-stop butterflies. It is strange that something we have waited so long for will be coming to an end. The lyrics from some old song I remember from college keep coming to my my, so cheesy, but so fitting...."every new beginning comes from some other beginings end..."

It has been over a year since we started paperchasing for our daughter. In some ways (I mean many, many, and most ways)I feel like it has been so long. But oddly there is a part of me that looks back on the last year and thinks man that really flew by. And now we are having another baby?! No way! No freaking way!

The way our agency operates, they take a whole day for translations. So they will get the package tomorrow I think and then we will be called on Tuesday. (Fat Tuesdsay!) We are also scheduled to get our second round of vaccinations that morning. Not sure how I will work that out.

I am also incredibly sad for the families who were cut so close by these May dates and the ones in June. I know the slow torture they are going through, the wailing, hair pulling and gnashing of teeth and so on and so forth. There is simply no comfort I can add except my empathy and testimony that it will eventually end, in warm hugs and sloppy kisses that will be so totally worth this drawn out ordeal.

Stork Alert!

Ok so the matches have been mailed, BUT is our LID (5/23) included????? ARGH! We don't know yet. I am literally shaking here. I am having a hard time typing this. If we are not in, ok I will deal with it. I am hoping to know something in the next couple of hours.
***UPDATE***
Ok I am very optimistic we are in! The rumor concensus seems to be sticking with a cut-off date of 5/25. Some one on a Yahoo board is tracking the packages via DHL (this is freaking unbelieveable! ) so we know where this package is. It should arrive on Monday and our agancy will make The Call on Tuesday morning. We are planning to videotape it too. I htink they send an email with her picture as you are speaking with them on the phone and then you also get a fedex package with the hard copies of information. This is all so surreal.

We went out to celebrate tonight with my parents and had dinner at a Mexican place, lenty of chips and salso and I had this giant 22 oz Dos XX, no way could I finish and still be coherent. Anyway putting the kids to bed now. They are very excited too. I told the kids I would print out an individual picture for them to keep and take to school and share with their frinds. Jake wants to get a map too and show everyone where she is.

Things are moving!!

My agency updated their website to let us know they received word that the CCAA is working on matches!!!* Some nutty lady on one of the big yahoo groups kept track for over a year of the number of days between our agency posting that message each month and the actual matches being sent out. I don't remember it exactly but I think the most days in between was 10. I know in a few cases it has been only one or two days!!!! Even Lee is starting to get excited, and this is a guy who didn't have much reaction to the addition of any of our other children until we were practically on the way to the hospital! Zippididodahzippidyay, that about sums up how I feel right now!!


*you must allow me to exercise my exclamation key excessively for the next few posts!!!!!!!!

aquarium

here are some shots from the Ga Aquarium, the little wormy things were so cool. They are called garden eels and they pop in and out.


     
    

fun weekend

  

Here is Lee trying to do a push up with all the kids on his back. It about killed him, but at least they had fun. It's all about the kids.

A Little Nutty

No posting for me lately. Honestly I am very on edge. Right after the last referrals were mailed I really was confident we would be next. Now I am getting anxious and worried. It is so unproductive and I hate feeling like this. I have absolutely no control over this and me worrying has zero effect on the outcome. I never thought of myself as a controller before this whole adoption thing and now I see how wrong I was. I just have never been in a situation where I have felt so helpless before. Well, I am sure I have I just can't think of one right now that has been this upsetting. I am about the most annoying person to be around right now. My head is in the clouds, my heart is aching and I just cannot focus on much of anything. Even this post is just grating. sorry. I am going to have a glass of wine and fix dinner. That might keep me from pulling my hair out.