A Little Nutty

No posting for me lately. Honestly I am very on edge. Right after the last referrals were mailed I really was confident we would be next. Now I am getting anxious and worried. It is so unproductive and I hate feeling like this. I have absolutely no control over this and me worrying has zero effect on the outcome. I never thought of myself as a controller before this whole adoption thing and now I see how wrong I was. I just have never been in a situation where I have felt so helpless before. Well, I am sure I have I just can't think of one right now that has been this upsetting. I am about the most annoying person to be around right now. My head is in the clouds, my heart is aching and I just cannot focus on much of anything. Even this post is just grating. sorry. I am going to have a glass of wine and fix dinner. That might keep me from pulling my hair out.