Returning

So, I have left this blog space for several months. There were many reasons why. One being that last fall we were in the midst of discerning a very important decision and there was little else that occupied my thoughts. This decision was a highly personal one and I felt I could not write it in such a public space. The decision was made. As is the case with lots of 'major' life decisions it brought a small amount of peace, but also a myriad of many more new decisions to be pondered!

Anyway, I feel compelled for many reasons (not the least being a prodding husband) to start posting again. He reminded me how fun it is to look back in the archives and read how our daily life was one or two years ago. He reminded me that many family members liked to check up on us here and to see pictures of the kids. He reminded me how much I enjoyed writing and clearing my thoughts.

Thanks for all of the gentle prodding, hon. I love you!

Hello out there!

I need to take the time to properly say 'Hello' and 'Welcome' to anyone who reads this blog. I do not use a site-meter, so basically the comments section is the only indication I have of who is reading.

Every couple of months I re-think this whole blog thing and wonder if I should pack it up. I question my own intentions and motives in what I write and share with the blogosphere. Obviously, this is not a diary, but I do write about some personal stuff as well as just a daily log on family life. Sometimes I think it is arrogant of me to believe strangers would even care about our beach trip or how we force our kids to be nice. I know many family members read this, but so do other folks, people I know in real life and others I have never meant. Usually, I have no idea how they strolled into the Magnolia Cul-de-sac!

I do love to write though and I think that writing for an 'audience' helps you become a better writer. It is an exercise in clarity. I know and trust that Lee understands what I mean when I mutter around the house about my toothbrush being buried in the Lego box. However, I re-read my blog entries and try to pare down and edit so that hopefully they make sense. Interestingly, my blog seems to encourage clarity in my everyday thought process as well. What a nice side-effect!

Anyhow, welcome to my blog and thank you for reading.

Doctor Visit

Today I took Lee for his appointment. Thankfully there are no sign of brain damage, but he will have an EEG soon as we can get one.

He has said he his going to take his meds now and I totally believe him. He is completely sincere, but I do think he is still in some form of denial. He just doesn't see this as serious or at least I am not seeing that he does.

I am still dealing with some anger and tenseness about this whole thing. It is hard for me to relax around him. I am always on alert even though I know it is unlikely he will seize again. He has never had one while on the meds.

I have been thinking on why I write and why I blog and seeing the responses below is another dimension of this whole blogging thing. Thank you from the bottom of my heart for your prayers and comments.